I wish we could open our eyes to see in all directions at the same time

The recent closure of Jowanistan has me thinking about blogging. Jo certainly misses it and I know I would if I had to stop doing it. I'm not entirely sure why though. Mostly because I can't really figure out why I blog in the first place. I'm fairly certain that, beyond a few people (who are certainly the cream of the....uh, people crop) who I'd tell this stuff to anyway, no one reads this. And I'm fine with that. I was fine when I thought it was only Susan reading it. Not that I don't like the thought that a link I've posted or something I've written makes someone giggle/want to cuddle (with me). Of course I do! And that's certainly part of the reason I blog.

For the most part my entries are topical and have little to say about my innermost thoughts. Tonight for example, I was going to write about how much Alicia makes me giggle and that I brought fudge home. That second one was mostly because I wanted to say how popular it made me with the roommates. And THAT was mostly because I wanted to call them Fudge Sluts.

And I'm not doing it to polish any sort of writing skillz. Nonexistent skills. Like, I can string a sentence together, but no one's going to read anything I write and be all "Crikey, that Toni knows her stuff. She's eloquent! Let me buy her dinner!" Especially not that last one.

One theory floating around my brain pan is that I blog because I'm trying desperately to hold onto to 'right now'. Like, right now I'm living with 4 people that I love and I'm (mostly) succeeding academically and not living with my family and learning new things about myself all the time and walking around in my robe A LOT and hanging out with a bunch of cool people (like you, dear reader). 'Right now', by it's very nature, isn't going to last forever. In fact, I've only got a couple of months left of living with my Brothelmates. I think I'm blogging so that someday, when things aren't as good as they are 'right now' I can look back and see what made me giggle, what made me happy, what I thought was cool.

Is that sad?